I thought this was supposed to get easier.

I cannot even begin to describe how much I miss Lillian during the day. It has been even harder than when I first went back to work. I think it is because she is interacting so much now and I don't want to miss ANYTHING!!! She is my world. She is my heart. She is a piece of me that is detached and away from me a good portion of the day. I sleep for 8 hours, work for 9 hours and spend about 3 to 4 hours with Lillian. That is so out of whack. At the same time I want so much for lily. I want her to grow up in this house and that would not be possible if we didnt have two incomes. I physically hurt because I miss my child so much.

Lillian,
You are my everything. You and daddy are the very best things that have ever happened to me. I count my blessing every night and you my love are at the top. You are the perfect combination of daddy and I. You are perfect and God made you so beautiful. I pray for you everyday. I am so blessed God made ME YOUR mommmy. I'm a lucky gal.

Love you to the moon and back angel

Mommy