IUGR, bed rest, and the scare of my life.

Let me take you back to Friday March, 18th.

 Normal follow up appointment went highrisk dr bc last time i was there little Lillian was in the 15th Percentile.

J cant come due to work, so my mom comes along for support.

They do the ultrasound and I got the best picture of her smiling.  Everything was going to be ok.

I sit down with the dr afterwards and he proceeds to scare me to death.  Now Lillian is in the 3rd % and offically concidered IUGR (intrauterine growth restricted).  He had a horrible bedside manner.  He proceeds to tell us that because my fluid levels are normal and chromosone abdnormality is always a concern for IUGR babies to concider getting an amnio.  You cannot scare me the way that dr did and expect me not to say YES to the amnio.  So I get prepped while sobbing for the amnio, amnio is over he said everything went perfectly.  They hook me up to the monitors to make sure I don't start contracting, which looked amazing.  Dr comes back in and we talk alittle bit more, he tells me it will be monday when I can get the results....then he says this to me "at the end of the day, this doesnt affect me"  Que super freakout....

So for three agonizing days I have to stew over this.  And I have come to the conclusion my baby is just fine.  Sure she has IUGR and we will be meeting her sooner than expected but she has a perfect heart, kidneys, liver, smile...everything. The odds of her having T18 are so stinkin low that my 18 week screening came back negative.  She doesnt have any other "markers" for T18 other than being small. 

Today is Monday at 4:45 and they tell me today that my results will not be back until tomorrow...are you kidding me???? This is what misery feels like. 

I have such an amazing support group and people from South Carolina to Washington state praying for my little miracle.  I know everything is going to be fine, but I just need to hear "the results are negative" and I can actually relax while on bed rest.