The beginning of a healthy journey

Since having Miss. L, I have had some extra weight. That's only obvious. I have lost 20 pounds since having my little sidekick, but I still have a lot to loose. 

I am past the point of just  wanting to loose weight, I want to be healthy. I want my family to be healthy. 

So, here it starts, the beginning of my journey...

I am writing this on my blog because I simply need to be held responsible. I need people to ask about my progress. I need to be accountable. 

I started my journey earlier this week when I decided to start weening myself off of my zoloft. I have to take zoloft for anxiety. I have prayed to God to get me through this. I have prayed for him to comfort me as I go off of a medicine that keeps me from panic attacks. I have already purchased my St. John's Wart, I will begin taking that as soon as I have weened myself off, I am ready to rid my body of toxins and replace it with all natural supplements. I am happy to report that as of now, I have not had one panic attack. Not even a little one. I am at peace, God has gotten me through way worst. 

Here goes nothing, advice and tips are extremely welcome...

Today's grocery store visit was a lot more colorful than usual. I have never purchased Kale, honestly didn't even know what to look for. Took my healthy treasures home, cleaned and prepared for the coming week.

Tonight's shake was gross.  I forgot the advise I had been given and made my shake with 4 vegetables and 3.5 fruits. lesson learned. It was thick, green and extremely healthy. 

Lillian couldn't get enough though, my little health nut.

So here goes nothing....I will post my progress and I cannot wait to see what my healthy future holds.

Going to bed a little smarter.

Today was a good day. Typical in some ways and out of this world weird in others. Lillian and I had a few extra visitors with is heading to nanny and papas. My sister Kristen AND my childhood best friend, Kristen. (Dont ask, for 13 years it has been confusing)

As always, I learned a few lessons today...
1. Don't take your grandmothers Lasiks.
2. Don't let your friends go shopping with you.
3. How chickens are made.
4. Don't burn your own trash.

You may remember from one of my last post that nanny and papa had a baby goat. Well, our family had further expanded and twin goats were born this week! Of course, we HAD to go play with them. My baby sister picked up and snuggled Roger, he was the baby featured on the last post about the goats. He yelled a little but I think he was just declaring his love for us! Anyways, while we were there we went in the chicken pin and decided to feed those feathered freaks. I just can't trust a chicken. We had the "chicken and the egg" talk and I was taught exactly what roll the rooster plays in the hatching of a little chick! Who knew.

With all the excitement from playing with goats and feeding chickens I made a large amount of bathroom dashes. I woke up this morning feeling "puffy" I made sure she had taken her Lasiks and said " I should take one, I'm bloated" next thing I know I'm swallowing a little white pill and i had no clue just how many times one person could pee. I bet I could describe every inch of Nannys bathroom now. Lesson learned.

Also while at nannys, their neighbor who is old like them ;-) decided he would burn his own garbage while he tinkered in his yard. Next thing he knows a can exploded and his yard is on fire. Thankfully they were able to put out the fire before it spread to the woods. Truth be told I could have drowned those flames with my bladder but no one asked me. So, when its dry out and you feel like you should burn trash, don't.

After Nannys we took the 2 year old home to nap and headed to Target. That's when both Kristen's rocked my world by revealing to myself that I have an unhealthy addiction to stripes. Everything I wanted had stripes. Everything I tried on was unflattering and I left empty handed. But that wasn't without putting on clothes that were clearly meant to be in someone else's closet. I love them for trying but I still looked cray cray.

Friday traditions and baby goats.

As you all may know, Lillian and I pack up and head to a tiny little town to visit nanny and papa just about every Friday. Papa always buys us lunch at an old gas station turned restaurant and we get the same thing. every. single. Friday.

Anyone who truly knows me knows how much I cherish my time with my grandparents. I am blessed to have them only 15 minutes away! I hope they can see how hard I try to be the best granddaughter I know to be. If my other grandparents lived closer I can only hope we would have the same relationship. They have been given the gift of watching Lillian grow from week to week and watch me grow as a parent. They spoil us rotten, and we are not a bit ashamed of it. :) We don't only see Nanny and papa, we always get to see Poppy (my dad) on our visit to Hickory Tavern as well.  Poppy always takes Lily to the gas station and buys her candy and I always get a lottery ticket, I always loose and dad always wins at least 3 dollars. Lucky duck.

This week we got to meet a new member of the family and Lillian and I lovingly named him Roger. (We aren't even  positive he is a he.) But we think he loves his name anyways.

I see ALOT of my personality in Lillian. My love and compassion for animals for instance. Lillian is not satisfied unless she has paid every animal she comes in contact with some attention. She loves feeding the chickens and goats.  She has the biggest most tender heart and this mama is so filled with pride every time I see her love on one of God's creatures. She may look like her daddy, but she has some characteristics of her mama, and that my loves, is the best feeling in the world.

 Enjoy my Friday in pictures.

Roger is so tiny.

OK clearly this is gross...but so sweet at the same time.

always takes walks with Poppy to get the mail

coloring in the sand with her stink

light exposure was clearly alittle off....oops

converses, grass stains, and snot.

Before I became a mom I did not understand how people let their children look like little homeless people. They were covered in dirt, had runny noses and looked like they carried diseases. Toddlers are gross. They are messy little humans and they will roll in just about anything.

Let me just tell you a story in pictures.

My sweet, perfect, clean, snot free little lady started off the day with her hair in a little fountain on the top of her hair that smelled of baby shampoo. We headed downtown and immediately rode the trollie with "Bumpa" and the gang.

The moment that child spotted "the hill" it was game over. With all of the other messy children playing, Lillian had to join in. Daddy, Nina and I all took turns going down the hill with her on our tooshies. All of us had nice green pants to show for our hundred trips down the hill.

Don't judge me. I forgot the makeup at home.

We used our grimy little hands to feed the ducks.

We walked around downtown, where we ate our fair share of ice cream, funnel cakes and shared an icee. She also decided that her hair bow needed to be brushed out.

The only think my sweet monster wants to do is play outside. She loves "side", so outside we went.

getting sleepy but refusing to stop.

That's when my gremlin put lots of mulch in her hair. 

A dirty child is never complete without an overload of snot. Don't say I didn't warn you.

I would kiss that face anyways. 

Today was a great day. I will always hold on the memories like those we made today, even if my child is one of those children.

Beautiful Feet.

I typed up an extremely long post and accidently deleted it...so, my loves, you are getting the short version of what I actually wanted to say. Sorry.

About a month and a half ago my dear friend Courtney and I  joined a gracious group of ladies at our church for bible study/missions. Hey Amanda!!!

"Beautiful Feet" an amazing group of woman who all share the love of Christ and helping others, all while needing their own little therapy session while making a journey through a bible study. 

 "How beautiful are the feet who bring good news"

-Romans 10:15

This group has everything I have been looking for. 

Courtney and I go way on back, like waaaay on back. For those of you who do not know we were almost sisters. Truest of stories. We share the same passions for helping and love homeless people. We even bought  a boat load of candle makings to make and sell and donate the money to a shelter or start something of our own.  We want to feed every hungry animal/human alive. Making someones day a little brighter. 

The idea that this group is already established is absolutely the push we needed.

Fast forward to tonight, the first night that the group is actually going out and serving and I am so excited I don't even eat or bathe. Yes people, this is that exciting.

I pick up Courtney a wee bit early, also hoping for some kisses from AG, eat the leftovers on Kyles plate, also a very true story, and we head off to do amazing things.

Side-note: Kyle "accidently" told me he loved me tonight, its OK to admit it Kyle, I love you too. 

We split off into several groups armed with about 10, five dollars gas cards and set off to make some lucky lady/lad's evening. 

Let me just say this(seriously, that's why I have a blog, because I have alot to say), as much as I wish I was great with words, I am in fact, not.  One can only wish. 

I met some people this evening who made me grateful for my "treasures", they made thankful to have a job, and so so blessed to be able to pray for them. People in my community are suffering everyday. They suffer from addiction, they suffer from poverty, they suffer from loneliness. They simply just suffer. I can only hope that I have made at least one positive impression on someone today. 

I am not promising, but I really want to blog about my experiences with "Beautiful Feet" I want to remember the people that are blessed by these amazing woman. 

  I want to bless someone.

big girl panties...

Has the time really come when we go shopping together for panties?! I was just holding my 5lb 6oz miracle and now she is picking out her own panties..for the very first time ever.  We have been putting little miss on the potty now for months, on and off.  Never really taking the full plunge. Well today we took a special little trip to Target to get panties.

picking out the perfect pair.

Minnie Mouse it is!

showing her daddy her new big girl panties.

Someone pinch me.  This can't be real.

Time to soak up every moment of her childhood, clearly it won't last long.

Spring in January.

This weekend has been so beautiful for mid January  with temps in the 70s. I don't know about you but that is paradise in Upstate South Carolina. On Saturday Jake and I packed up Scarlett and Lillian (Cady is way too domestic for the woods) and headed to a nature trail. Lillian had a blast. We took in the fresh air took on the adventure. I could not help but remember the old days. The days were Scarlett was our biggest responsibility, we would pack her up, throw her in the back of our jeep and head to the woods. Scarlett was actually very sick when we adopted her, after we got her healthy again we still could NOT get her to walk on a leash. Jake and I took her to the woods and she did not hesitate to walk on her leash. It was like that is where she belonged. Time crept up on us, we bought a house, adopted Cady and the brought Lillian into the family and poor Scarlett has not seen the woods in quite a while. It felt good to see her enjoy herself and Lillian got to see her sister in her element.  Afterwards we let Lillian slide and swing until she was falling over from exhaustion. Sunday was just as beautiful. Headed to church (where my child was genuinely excited to play with other children and did not miss her mama at all...but that is for another post) and afterwards we went to the in laws for lunch. Baked ham, cabbage, black eyed peas and carrot salad was on the menu. We grubbed and headed back outside for another day full of sunshine and family. The boys played wiffle ball and Lillian, Shelly and I all chased Roxie around the open field and dodged ant hills, took a family walk to McDonalds for ice cream cones and it made for the most amazing weekend we have had in quite a while. I don't feel so much dread for Monday when I know I got to thoroughly enjoy my weekend with my sweet, precious,beautiful family. So bring on the work week, I can already see Thursday. 

                                                                                       

Lillian wanted to play ball with the boys!

              Spent some quality time with her Nina and Bumpa

best seat in the house

                                                     Nature trail on Saturday